"Mom, there is a rainbow, you just don't see it"

wow... I really haven't blogged for awhile have I? I think about it but I've been so busy doing other things I haven't had the opportunity. Partly it's because my son loves the computer and he spends several hours per day researching his favorite topics; which for now is meteorology and geography. He taught himself how to use google maps and he spends hours looking up monuments and different counties that intrigue him. It's fun to watch him.

And it's also partly because I've been trying to catch up on the rest of my life. Cancer seemed to take over for the last couple of years. I am so behind on so many things. Like for example - my taxes. Today I finally got all of my numbers compiled and into my computer so I can get them to my accountant.

That was kind of a hard journey. I had to go back to January 2007. It made me remember things; like my Dad's passing, when I first got sick, employees I'm happy to be rid of, that stupid public relations guy I hired.... all sorts of things. It also looked like we didn't have a whole lot of fun over those 2 years. Fun is something I wish to prioritize now.

A few days ago we had a rainy day. In our house that means my son wakes up early, excited and ready to "storm chase". He was outside with Emily observing and analyzing the cloud formations. He called in to me and asked me to bring the camera out to take a picture of the rainbow. I went to the door and looked. I saw no rainbow anywhere. After a minute or two I said "there isn't a rainbow". He looked at me with exasperation and said "Mom, there is a rainbow, you just don't see it" Then he pointed to the sky and low and behold a rainbow was forming.

I thought about that statement for a long time. "There is a rainbow, you just don't see it". I think I have been in a dark cloud for awhile. I'm now ready to see all the rainbows.